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Today is the National Day. And being typical youngsters in KL, we always go out and countdown. But somehow, last night I don’t feel like going out. Cos I just got back in the morning from beh’s place and my whole body muscles was still in pain from the work outs. Especially my abs.

But to my surprise, CW called me at 6pm. At 1st she wanted to ask for directions. Then she asked if I wanna join. I rejected at first. She keeps persuading for more than 30mins till I gave up finally. And the time to meet was at 8.30pm. She came pick me up at my place.

When I got in the car. I felt a little awkward. However, she’s my ex and the last time I saw her was when she never say a word and just return me the stuffs by just showing me it’s in the back of the seat. Awkward…

While on the way to Enigma, we started to chat a little. Updating me on the group of friends I used to hang out with. I start to get comfy and relieved at the same time knowing that we still able to chat happily as friends.

We’ve stopped by at a mamak stall cos she haven’t ate her dinner yet. I didn’t wanna eat cos I really need to get on diet and I’ve already eaten at home. Talk n talk n talk again. And she broke the news to me that she had a gf. But didn’t know it’s official or not.

The reason why she don’t know to make it official or not cos she don’t know if she’s her type or not. That’s one. And she said that, that girl, S, didn’t know how to be a gf. All her time is only spent in studies and friends.

Mine. Of cos I told her my updates. I told her bout beh. And I told her that beh treats me very well. No complications at all. Simple, peaceful relationship.

My advice to her last nite was, communications. Just talk to her and see what she wants.

After dinner, we went over to Enigma and ordered a bottle of vodka. We were expecting another 2 friends, who are her ex colleagues to join us. So we drank while we waiting. At the same time, we do our usual stuffs. Observe people around and criticize. We just couldn’t stop laughing all night.

At the end, that 2 fella didn’t turn up. So we have to finish up the bottle of vodka. I bump into another 2 friends and I keep asking them to drink with me. 2 glass in a row, bottoms up. I even dragged the waiter to drink few glasses with me.

I ended up, spending most of my time in the toilet vomiting. After some time staying in the toilet, to my surprise, she came to check if I was ok. It never happen before for the past 2 yrs. The 1st thing I asked, ‘Why didn’t u do this before? Why now?’

She didn’t answer me.

I kept vomiting my heart out, even until when we went downstairs to get the car from the opposite road. I squat down by the drain to vomit some more. My entire drinking history, this is my longest vomit ever. Gotta jot it down. 31.08.08. 2am. longest vomit ever by me.

I’m still able to teach her how to push my back upwards, not downwards. And I’m still able to tell her to get tissue from my bag, knowing she won’t put any tissues in her car.

After I’m done. I got in the car and rest. Half way driving. She finally answered me. She said she learnt a lot from our rship. And she’s tryin to change. She has waited for a girl in the car for 2 hours. Wow. Impressive. And the reason she don’t wanna make it official yet, it’s bcos she still haven’t put me behind her. She still wants me to fill in the official part.

I told her I’m attached. I’m happy. If wanna compare, beh treats me much much better than she is. She said she understand and she’ll respect.

We stopped by at McD drive thru for another short chat. Overall it’s just about us and our partners.

I told her I’m glad she have changed. Just that I’m not that person who get to experience it. Appreciate what u have now. Make her girl official and treat her well. Nobody knows whats the ending like if there’s no beginning.

All the best CW.

And u ms. beh… love u loads. Muahs…